Stop worrying about finding the right woman. Begin to consider more deeply the sort of man you must be, the sort of man whom Christ has called, one who must lead with love, one who gives all and leaves none for himself, one who lays his life down for the good of those around him, and to the glory of God, who brought him out of darkness. Become that man, renewed in spirit; you must, before you will ever be able love as Christ has loved His church.